the ants are in the sugar,
the muscles atrophied / we're on the other side,
the screen is us and we're tvs

spread me open / sticking to my pointy ribs
are all your infants in abortion cribs

I was born into this, everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear

pray until your number,
asleep from all your pain
your apple has been rotting,
tomorrow's turned up dead

i have it all and
i have no choice but to / i'll make everyone pay
and you will see

you can kill yourself now because you're dead in my mind
the boy that you loved is the monster you fear

peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
(pray your life was just a dream..!)
pray your life was just a dream, the cut that never heals

pray now baby,
pray your life was just a dream..
(just a dream...)



[I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape]
[I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape]

pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
..someone had to go this far

I was born into this, everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear..

peel off all those eyes
and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children
to camouflage your scars

pray unto the splinters,
pray unto your fear
(pray your life was..)
pray your life was just a dream the cut that never heals!
(..just a dream)
pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream

the world in my hands,
there's no one left to hear you scream!
no one left for you!
(nooneleftforyou...)

Mhh I thought Flow would like my idea.
I guess I was wrong...

Okay people, I'm not some kind of net slut.
Since I got my VF, once in a while I get some bitch adding me to her msn to try and get cybersex with me, or asking about my size or wanting to see me naked on the webcam.

I mean, in a weird and pathetic way, I feel flattered. But actually, no, I don't feel flattered at all. I don't give a rat's shit about those things.

End of the message.

It's been a while. But here I am again.

I got back to bs as, and I've been resting. Partly, because I was a bit sick and need to fully recover. Partly, because it's 35-40ºC outside every goddamned day =S, and partly because there's no one that I want to see right now.

I have a silly plan to try and get my life back. It's completely impossible that it will work out, but still, I need to try.. I have nothing better to do with my life anyway...
If I don't try, I'm better off dead. And I really like her so I might as well give it a shot =]