I think, I'm definitely an Absorber.
I'm not sure if there's such a definition, but it's something I just do. I find myself trying to absorb the negative energies out of the people I care about (and sometimes, out of people I don't care about, too) and try to send them my good will so they will feel and be better.

I wonder how some people are Senders, of negative energies.. don't they worry about the repercussions of being like that? The negative karma they're creating on themselves? Or maybe, karma works differently for each of us..?

She's so shiny and perfekt!
And as of today, she's my girlfriend ^^

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No hay "por siempre" en este mundo
Y te va a doler saber por que,
Soy humano y mi destino es ser mortal
(Sobre su obligo se proyecta el triple seis..)

Last night -as we did almost every other night since I've gotten here to Madrid- I chatted with her. We've been drawing together in Heart and Soul, I can feel it. When she's cold, I worry and tell her to go get something, and when I'm tired for lack of sleep, she scolds me. When she teases me, I know her cheeks get red and she'll deny it to death, and when I tell her how I feel, my hands sweat lightly. And all these silly games we play are like life coming back to my body, after all that time.
I can see now that Amanda was maybe my first Love, but it was unhealthy, and together with Blair, they both were the price I had to pay before I got to her. I feel this could be the best time of my life, but I'm scared of blowing it, even before it starts. Still, I know we're being drawn together with magnetic forces too strong to fight against. Once I get to her, I know exactly how it will be -I've had dreams about it!- and I know it will be a crucial point. But I'm not scared. As strange as it is, I'm overly nervous when I have to give an oral exam, and I'm detached when it comes to human relations (long story...) but for this, my shyness is nonexistant. On the contrary, all her activity and extraversion disappear when it comes to feelings. We're inversed, when it comes to feeligs. And I like it, her non-aggressive nature is so much like my own... I'm writing and writing because if I stop, I'll go crazyyhfjkhfg: our meeting is so close and yet there are so many "obstacles" in betweenn

I'm at the hotel lobby right now. I stayed because I had to study some .pdfs (I'll sit for an exam as soon as I get off the plane tomorrow =/..) and I didn't want to go around anymore, I'm tired.
Well, what can I say? It was a great trip. I had the chance to go to Europe, something I always wanted to do, and I visited some nice historical and cultural places. Once again, I got to compare different societies (the european and my own) and I bought some stuff. I distanced myself from my life and my responsibilities, from my friends and from Gabi. The only thing I regret is not seeing her for almost 12 days..! It's too much, and especially given the frail state of our relationship, it just started and it's still on its growth phase =]

It's strange. Over here, I get noticed much, much more. And I feel good with myself, because temptation could have taken over me, but once again, I can say that my beliefs are right and my way of thinking and feeling is unchanged. I know that many guys I know would have loved to take advantage of the many situations I got into. And I don't care, I don't regret the way I am.
I miss that feeling.. of togetherness. I don't know if that word exists, but with her, I can feel that. And I never looked for something else, I always longed to be really close to someone (again) and I hate superfluous, meaningless things... And over here, I don't like the "feeling" people give me either. Back home, it's pathetic, and I thought it would be different over here. Maybe because Spain isn't much unlike Argentina. I don't know.

* * *

At 11pm we're getting on the plane. The flight lasts 11 hours, but oddly enough, the plane should be landing at 5am tomorrow (there's a 5 hour lag between here and there). When I get home, I'll have some time to rest and at 10am I'll have my exam. I'm not nervous at all -I never am before I sit for an exam- and somewhen I'll send Gabriela an SMS. I have to meet some university people, for 2 different group assignments (bleeehhhh) and then, I have my godfather's birthday, he'll be 42.
I'd love to see her, but it will have to wait till friday, probably. And I'll probably miss my monday's Deutsch class. Still, I had some chances to practice both my Deutsch and Italian over here ^^

Qué barbaridad haber tenido que esperar
para vernos de tan cerca
Desnudemonós y no digamos nada más,
en silencio, tus caricias, son hermosas
Son hermosas

Todo lo que pueda arreglar hoy lo dejaré para mañana
Todo lo que pueda arreglar hoy lo dejaré para mañana

Qué casualidad fue encontrarte justo acá
yo tan puesto, vos tan apuesta
Qué atrevido fui al iniciarte en la verdad
yo radiante, vos tan dispuesta, soy hermoso
Soy hermoso

Todo lo que pueda arreglar hoy lo dejaré para mañana
Todo lo que pueda arreglar hoy lo dejaré para mañana

(This lyrics are ugly, but at some parts, they are beautiful. I'm going to miss her so much, it wasn't the right time for me to leave..)

It's a happy and sad thing at the same time. I'm going to Madrid, Spain, for 10 days with my mother and sister. As she (my mother) is going for work, it's all cost-free for my sister and me, so we'll enjoy some nice and short holidays over there.

But at the same time, it will be a bit over a week where I won't see her, and it will hurt. I know, it will feel so much better once I return, that closeness one gains when taken apart so bluntly, but still, I know it's gonna hurt.

Well, I'm off! :]