Yesterday (bah, on Wednesday really - it's Friday already!) we celebrated our 3rd month of being together. And we had our first serious fight, over some silly thing I said.
It seems to be always some silly thing I say. I won't try and say it's someone else's fault; it's completely mine usually! But luckily, this triggered a series of events which led us to be completely honest with each other, and now things are even better than before. Karmic reward? I hope so! :]

The Past is past now. I find my previous relationships flawed and pathetic. And my previous girlfriends flawed and pathetic too. They were too self-centered, superfluous, frivolous, promiscuous, selfish, materialistic, and most probably, a combination of all of these things. I can't even think of them now, their faces are all blurry, and it's hard for me to recall their voices or conversations we had. I see some flashes, and remember some moments.
And I find them too.. They were so.. earthly relations... No sign of heavens as NIN puts it. I mean, 2005 brought me some sluts who were with me only for how I look or what I represent, or just passing by. 2006-2007 brought my first real gf and my first adult relationship. It's so pathetic! Everything turns to SHIT.

And I'm not some alien being, as I had become for years. I love Gabi so much, but I want to make it really special. Up to now, I never had a choice =S I'm the reverse of what I should be (being a man and all those chauvinistic concepts we live with in our society) and I feel dirty.

The Past... is past now!