I've made my decision. I will do my best.

I know that -given a choice- I wouldn't even bother, I would focus on the rest of it, I would just live on..
But seeing it from a diferent perspective, the other one I truly have, I need to do this.. I need to give it a try, to get to know someone else much better, to move on.

Of course, the other half of my mind feels dirty and betrayed and whatever. But you know what? Fuck the other half of my mind =S
I'm really sorry. Things don't work out. Things fall apart, things end. And I want to feel close to someone again, as I haven't felt close to someone during the whole year (except for a few, counted days with her, when we'd still see each other...)

But the thing is, I made up my mind..